so........

I am pregnant.

Strangely Numb.*not a pregnancy announcement.

I am still waiting on my period. I took about ten pregnancy tests (I think that's an exaggeration, but only slightly so) between Friday and Sunday. All negative. I took the ept test I got and it kinda looked positive, but I'm pretty sure I could just see the blue where it was supposed to turn positive if it was positive. I looked very closely.

I was proud of myself yesterday because I just sat, cramping, waiting for my period, which did not come. I didn't poas all day. Oh, and all that achy boob stuff? Gone.

Because I'd had a positive opk on both CD 17 and CD 18, I kind of just figured I'd ovulated on CD 19, not 18 like I'd thought and that I'd get my period today.

I had plans all morning, but I'm an hour into naptime and have gone crazy enough (what with all the free time to think) to poas.

I used one of my off-amazon-crazy cheap-paper-shredder style hpts.

Now I'm just staring at it and trying to figure out if it is positive because it doesn't really look like it is, but I'm not fully convinced it's not.

And wouldn't a hpt be really freaking obviously positive at this point? 14 dpo?

I'm kind of unemotional (hence the title). I just feel like I deserve the answer. I hate the 2ww and I had to add a day this time, and my cycle is already longer than most people's because I ovulated late.

ANSWERS!

I'll update because this stupid hpt has me crazy enough to go get an ept at CVS if my period doesn't arrive before dinner.

She's coming.

I feel it. My period is on its way.....not here yet, but imminent.

CD 32

Things I did yesterday.

• poas, negative.
• bought another pregnancy test, an ept because I think they're more accurate.
• read on the side of the box that the test is only 53% accurate 4 days before your missed period.
• willed myself not to waste the ten dollars I spent on the test by poas again.
• obsessed over my potentially not but if not my mind is surely a powerful thing achy boobs.
• ate six, yes SIX reese's peanut butter eggs because I can not resist at easter time and I am a comfort eater.
• weighed myself to check the effect of dining on peanut butter eggs for lunch. (thus far, no effect.)
• was too sensitive to my toddler's totally toddler-like behavior, which included crushing graham crackers into the couch with pure joy, over and over again. and then again.
• ate some sushi.
• watched Thursday's dvred episode of lost.
• went to bed at 9.

CD 30
11 or 12 dpo
1500 mg metformin
prenatal vitamin

PCOS
MF